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Dear Mom
When life gets hard, and times are rough
And you feel you can't go on, it's just too tough
Know that I'm here, as you've always been
Not just as your daughter, but as your friend
You're my best friend, and "my mommy" too
And no matter what, I'm here for you
There will be times in life that it's hard to cope
But don't lose faith, don't give up hope
Look how far you've come, what you've made it through
You are strong & you'll get through this too
We'll be okay, we'll get through it together
You can count on me, now & forever.
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When It's Over
Why do you love me, what do you see?
What could be so special about someone like me?
Sometimes I wonder when you're gonna let go
I love you so much, I just want you to know
When you find someone better, like I know you can,
Please let me down slowly, please hold my hand
Don't tell me she's prettier, I already know she is
Just hold me tight and give me one last kiss
Don't tell me she's sweeter, even if it's true
Just know that I did the best I could do
I hope she makes you happy, Lord knows I tried
I'll smile & wish you luck, my true feelings I'll hide
Until you, I never knew what real love was
But don't worry about leaving me...everyone does.
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100 Things About Me
1. what's your first name? Darla
2. how old are you? 23
3. are you male or female? female
4. what is your birthday? 11/28/82
5. what astrology sign are you? Sagittarius
6. what is your favorite color? pink and orange
7. what is your favorite food? mashed potatoes
8. what is your favorite TV show? The 90's re-make of The Magnificent Seven
9. what is your favorite movie? The Cure
10. what color is your hair? at the moment, it is dark brown with bright un-naturally red highlights
11. what color are your eyes? brown
12. how many pets do you have? 1
13. what kind of pets do you have? dog
14. what is your favorite cartoon character? The Green Carebear or the Penguin Carebear-Cousin
15. what are your hobbies? scrapbooking, reading, writing
16. what is your favorite animal? alligator, penguin, shark
17. who is your best friend in the whole world? Jenny and my mom
18. do you have a cell phone? yea
19. do you have a TV in your room? yes
20. how many brothers do you have? 1
21. how many sisters do you have? 1
22. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? boyfriend
23. are you a virgin? no
24. what is your favorite song? it changes every time I hear a song I like, right now it is "Why" by Jason Aldean
25. who is your favorite band or musician? Nickelback
26. who is your favorite actor? too many to name: Paul Walker, Seann William Scott, Matthew McConaughey, etc...
27. who is your favorite actress? Reese Witherspoon
28. do you have an ipod or an ipod mini? nope
29. who is your hero? My grandma and my mom
30. what is your favorite sport? i like to play sand-volleyball, but i don't like to watch any sport
31. who is your favorite sports star? Kasey Kahne (NASCAR)
32. do you have a laptop? nope
33. do you live in the city or in the country? small city
34. who is your favorite author? I don't know that I have a favorite author, but my favorite book is by Jodi Picoult
35. what is your favorite book? My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult
36. what is your favorite magazine? Cosmo, Glamour
37. do you have a job? yep
38. do you keep a diary anywhere besides on the internet? I try to, but I forget about it most of the time
39. what do you want to be when you grow up? I never wanna grow up
40. do you want to get married? yes... again
41. do you want to have children? maybe - if it happens, it happens. if not, that's okay too
42. what kind of gum do you chew? Trident Twisted Strawberry (but I have to mix one sweet piece with one sour piece)
43. do you like to have your picutre taken? yes
44. what grade of school are you in? graduated in 2001
45. what is your clothing style? depends on the day and my mood
46. what do you sleep in at night? t-shirt & undies... sometimes pj bottoms too
47.
what kind of things do you collect? EVERYTHING! James Dean, beach stuff
for my bedroom, picture frames, Carebears, and the list goes on...
48. what is your favorite thing to do on a summer day? go to the lake
49. what is your favorite thing to do on a Friday night? get dressed up just ot go out to eat
50. what is your favorite season? summer
51. what are your favorite letters? uh.... Z? i dunno, guess i never thought about it
52. what are your favorite numbers? 13
53. do you have anything that is lucky to you? not anymore
54. have you ever drank alcohol? yes
55. have you ever smoked a cigarette? no
56. have you ever done drugs? no
57.
have you ever felt like commiting suicide? no, that doesn't solve
anything, it just makes more problems for the people you love
58. have you ever had a really bad illness that put you into the hospital? no
59. do you have your ears pierced? yes
60. do you have anywhere else on your body pierced? no
61. what is your favorite flower? white daisey
62.
what is your favorite candy? Icebreakers Sours (i think they are
supposed to be like mints only sour, but they taste like candy!)
63. what is your favorite dessert? strawberry cheesecake
64. what is your dream vacation? Greece
65.
describe you ideal mate? some one who will love me for me, mkaes me
laugh, and be there through good & bad times (and i'll do the same
for them)
66. do you play an instrument? not anymore, i used to play the flute in highschool
67. what kind of car do you drive? 2004 mustang
68. what is your ideal car? 2005 mustang
69. have you ever went skinnydipping? no
70. how many CD's do you have? almost 300
71. how many computer games do you have? none
72. how many posters are in your room? none
73. how many pairs of shoes do you own? around 40
74. how many pairs of jeans do you own? about 5
75. what color is your bedroom? white, with blue accents
76. do you have your own bathroom? yes
77. who do you live with? just my dog
78. do you have your own website? nope
79. do you sleep with your bedroom door closed or open? closed, habit from when i had a roommate
80. what is your favorite subject in school? it was English
81. who is your favorite teacher? it was Major Miller, the ROTC instructor
82. do you participate in any extracurricular activities at school? nope
83. have you ever cheated on a test? nope
84. have you ever cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend? no
85. would you have sex for money? no
86. are you messy or organized? by all appearances, I'm organized - but my apartment is a mess
87. how many pillows do you have on your bed? 2, but I only use 1
88. do you have a scrapbook? yes, a few actually
89. have you ever stolen someone else's boyfriend/girlfriend from them on purpose? no
90. have you ever written a story or poem and gotten it published? it's in the process of being published
91. who was your first crush? Benjie in kindergarten
92. do you believe in karma? yes
93.
do you believe in past lives? not really, but it's a possibilty (Jason
tells me I must have been a James Dean groupie in a past life, because
I was obsessed with him before I saw any of his movies!)
94. do you believe in ghosts? yes
95. what religion are you? I don't know that I am any certain religion - but yes, I believe in God
96. have you ever gone on a diet? no
97. do you believe in love at first sight? without a doubt
98.do you think you are infuencial to anyone you know? I hope so
99.
what are three things you would change about yourself if you could? not
be so shy, not be afraid of getting hurt, lose a few pounds
100.
what are three things you like about yourself? I try to give everyone
the benefit of the doubt (which can be bad too), I am honest, I don't
get jealous easily
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Confessions
I
strongly believe that good will always win over evil.... HOWEVER, that
doesn't stop me from worrying about the outcome, anyway.
I want so badly to always be happy that I sometimes push happiness away. This keeps someone else from hurting me.
I
don't have many friends. I wish I did. But it's hard for me to talk to
other girls, because in general, we are shallow, petty, and bitchy.
I like to cry. It makes me feel better.
I am an awful cook, I don't have the patience for it.
I
love to be inlove, but I'm afraid of it. The more you open up yourself
to someone else, the less control you have over your emotions.
I will forgive anyone (almost) for anything (almost).
I
am finally learning that just because you are friends with someone for
a long time, through a lot of problems, doesn't mean you should stay
friends with them. You have to know when it gets to the point of being
unhealthy for you, and then just let go.
I have no regrets in life. Mistakes are learning experiences.
I trust too easily. I give everyone the benefit of the doubt. This also leads to me getting hurt.
I am happier right now in my life than I can ever remember being.
I don't feel like an adult. I feel out of place at nice restaurants, like a little girl playing dress-up.
My mom is my best friend. I haven't seen her for a while, and I miss her more than anything.
When
I'm upset, I like to drive fast. Thinking clearly, I know I shouldn't -
reaction time would be a lot slower - but when I'm upset, I do it
anyway.
I believe in God and Heaven, but I'm not sure I believe in Hell.
I
sometimes pretend not to care what people think of me, but in reality,
I am insecure. Although, for the most part, I like myself. Even I know
that doesn't make a lot of sense.
I can't handle pain... at all.
I
would love to be a writer. Although I have one poem that is being
published, I don't have enough faith in my work to do any more.
I
can't talk about my feelings, good or bad. I can write it down in a
letter, but I have to give it to the person before I lose the nerve.
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Never Let Go
I can heal from a broken heart,
If I have to -
I'll be okay when I'm torn apart,
It's nothing I haven't been thru -
I could live without you,
But I don't wanna try -
I could say I don't love you,
But that would be a lie -
With every smile and every laugh,
I look at you and see life's path -
You're my world and everything in it,
And I don't want to waste even a single minute -
So take my hand and never let go,
Because I love you, I love you so.
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